I’m writing this anonymously because I don’t want anyone to know yet. I just need a place to voice out my sadness and vent out my frustrations.
For the past five years, I’ve been doing my best for you. I put in my whole heart and soul to be the best girlfriend ever. If you ask any girl out there whether she would go so far for you, they’ll call me crazy and stupid at best.
I remember the time when we first became intimate, it was in your home. I was a shy young girl and didn’t know anything about sex. You said to just relax and go with the flow. I was hesitant but you insisted and told me that I was beautiful and you would only have eyes for me. I believed you then but you made me regret it just two years later.
I found messages in your phone. It was with this girl who was in no way prettier than me. What were you thinking!? She’s not even cute!
I took your phone without your permission, yes, but it’s only because you were always spending time messaging someone you said was your friends. You’re a terrible liar. What kind of guy messages his male friends deep into the night? The way you smiled was as if you were talking to someone more than special in your life.
You fought with me when I brought you lunch at your workplace. I did this for all this years and you did not complain. You said I was the best girlfriend ever.
Now you’ve left me for this bitch. It’s not about my pride or my ego now. It’s just me being angry for giving up my first time and five years of my life to you, a cheating, lying bastard.
When we met yesterday, I already expected that you could do something like this. Choosing Christmas Day as a good day to break off? You meanness and cruelty to others was always a thing I knew about, but I thought I was your precious person. Now it seems not anymore.
I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to get over this. I cannot imagine myself loving another man like you. I just need to sleep and rest but I wonder if my heart will ever trust again.